Life Goes On

In my 28 years of existence, I came to realize what philosophy really is. It is not something that we must follow because the philosophers before us said it. What the philosophers in the past had said, they should only serve as a guide for us to find our own philosophy. We are created having the most wonderful talent, rationalizing, hence we must make good use of it. We must rationalize from within and find the meaning of our lives. Hence, I came down with the following as my philosophy. It may have been said before by some philosophers, and some may not agree on what the norms believe, but I am entitled to these, because I am a rationalized being, and I have the right to philosophize. 1. Things do not change. It is our perspective that changes. An apple is an apple until the end, it does not become a pear at any point of its life. It only ripens and eventually rottens, and we as individuals are the ones who give this state to it. It is our perspective that says when an apple is good t...

My friend posted this status on his page: "I used to dream of being a musician. Now that I am old, will I still be able to pursue it?" Without hesitation, I commented and told him that age should never be a hindrance on chasing one's dream. This topic inspired me to write this blog. When I was two years old and the elders would ask me what I wanted to be when I grow up, my answer was very simple and sounds stupid: I wanted to be a sales lady. I am not quitr sure why I answered that. While other kids of my age would say they wanted to be doctors or nurses to cure the ill, pilots or stewards to travel the world, my answer was to be a sales lady simply because I find them fashionable and pretty. However, unlike my friends whose dreams never changed till they grow old, mine transformed into totally different goal in life: as I started to learn the ABCs and be able to write them, I realized I wanted to be a writer. I found the beauty of words and how fashionable they seem to b...

When I read the title of an article (please click  here ) a day ago, I cringed instead of being proud. I mean, seriously, Philippines lent $1B to the euro zone fund? I thought, "is this really my homeland or there is another Philippines in this world?" However, after reading through it, I know I am not dreaming. It is indeed about our BSP's (Banko Sentral ng Pilipinas or CBP for Central Bank of the Philippines) recent activity. As far as I know, we are still a third-world country (any economist/ financial analyst can correct me here). There are a lot of other things that the BSP should work on in the Philippines alone. What they claimed in the article that our economy is not that bad anymore unlike in the past is for most Filipinos an illusion. While the malls and high-rise condominium buildings, the facade of the economic status, increases in number, the infrastructures that the majority of the Filipinos need decreases. It would have been a good news if there are no high...

I am so grateful I was still there. Eventhough we do not always agree with each other, I still love her. She's so beautiful even on her old age.

The famous Brothers Grimm are Hessisch! One of the house where they lived and wrote some of their works is just 11 km away from us! A Little Trivia: Snow White story is based on real people. The girl which inspired them about Snow White lived in Lohr am Main, the next County to Main-Kinzig-Kreis. The place where she lived with the dwarves is said to be in Bieber, Biebergemünd (yes, the next village to us), and they were said to be the miners. In old times, the miners were small people (compared to a natural height of Germans) that's why they were called dwarves. In Lohr was also this factory that manufactures mirrors, that inspired the character of Magic Mirror. The wandering path along the series of mountains from Schloss Lohr am Main (Lohr Castle, http://www.antenne.de/Schneewittchen-Schlo%C3%9F%20in%20Lohr%20am%20Main%20__schoeneorte_233923_news.html ) to Bieber, Biebergemünd is called Schneewittchenwandernweg (Snow White's Path) and is approximately 35 km, one of the famo...

Uwe's first time in the Philippines! That was also the time when he told my family he wants to marry me ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!!! :D

First real spring for me. I am always here during Fall and Winter.

Dresden, Moritzburg, Meissen, Radeburg. Pentecost weekend with hubby and some Emerson guys from USA.

Our marriage is like anybody's marriage. We have fun times together wherein we laugh out loud like two crazy people. We have serious times together when we would exchange our thoughts and opinions over the current events in Germany and in the whole world. We fight, so often than you could imagine, over reasons that are sometimes already categorized as unreasonable. I am not proud of that. As much as possible I do not want to fight. But there are things I am proud of that I hope all other relationships in this world would have: trust and communication. It is not really easy to give more than a hundred percent trust on your partner. Especially in my case, we have totally different culture, and he had a lot of past to tell. Despite it all, I decided to give him my full trust. I believe and hold on to his words that "he had already seen the world." Sometimes, we fight over his habit of staying up too late because of computer game or simply the internet. As somebody who grew u...

Around the neighborhood and inside our house. Just everything Biebergemündisch... :)

Coco, Cuhcuh, Koko... So many spellings of his nickname, but his real name is All Nam-Nam (name given and registered by Aries of Bluebox). I adopted him last year, 29th of April. It was not planned, we went at Aries's house, not because we wanted to buy a dog, but because my husband needs to buy a pack of cigarette! We saw the ad by their gate that there are already puppies ready for adoption. We asked Aries's father if we can see the puppies. He was so kind and took Coco and his sister out. Coco was so sweet, he immediately came to hubby and licked him. We both fell in love with Coco, not only because he's sweet but also because he's a male! (We do not want a female dog actually.) So we asked how much does the adoption costs. Aries was so nice, he gave us a discount because he said we're neighbors and because Coco seems to like us immediately (other people might charge us higher because my hubby is a foreigner, but Aries did the other way). So there! He's so lo...

Ody went to visit us. The planned Cologne trip was changed to Mainz. Not bad at all.

We were so lucky to be able to watch the said-to-be Game of the Season! Who would have thought that Stuttgart can match the strongest team, Dortmund. First half time was 2:0 for Dortmund. On the second half time, Stuttgart made 2 goals in 10 minutes! Then it was a running goals for the two teams. At 89 minutes, the score was 4:3 for Dortmund. Klopp was already rejoicing for he thought they already won, but wait! There was 3 minutes after game due to fouls and fireworks. 2 seconds before the referee called in a night: Stuttgart made a goal! That was the most number of goals ever made for the season. :) Thanks to Lothar Ott for the tickets. :)

I noticed that most people here go out to take a walk on New Year's day. I don't know what it means, but I was envious. So my husband took me for a walk... Our destination: The Middlepoint of European Union in Meerholz. :)

So I have posted a poem today for my husband for the reason that we got into a fight the night before yesterday. That was also the reason why there was a lot of hatred posts before today, I am sorry, I was carried away by my emotions. Anyway, I am not quite sure if I should write more in German so that he can fully understand my thoughts or just write in the language I am most comfortable:English and Filipino. It is because I still do not have the full confidence to use the German language. The translation I wrote there was purely rough. I am fully aware I got lots of error there. Still, I decided to publish it despite and inspite of errors it contains. I mean, one cannot learn without committing any mistake. Anyway, I had blogged once that my DTZ exam was near. Today, I am proud to say that I have passed it! I am now certified that I can read, speak and write in B1 level of German! Here is the CEFR (Common European Framework of Reference) description of B1: Can understand the main poi...

All the dramas are through (Alle Dramen sind vorbei) All the tears are dried (Das Weinen hat schon beendet) We found a way to compromise (Kompromise wird endlich gefunden) Love has won the fight. (Die Liebe hat den Kampf gewonnen). I am smiling now (Ich bin nun so glücklich) The heavy weight is gone (Das Gewicht wird weggenommen) Love is truely magical (Die Liebe ist wirklich magisch) And I am glad I found love. (Und ich bin froh, dass ich verliebt bin). If you happen to read this,my baby (Wenn du,mein Baby, liest den) Rest assured all is back to normal (Versichere dir, alles wieder okay) What happened in the past is past (Was passiert ist,ist schon vorbei) What is important is the now. (Die wichtigste ist was wir jetzt sind). I love you and I always will (Ich liebe dich und es ist für immer) Be it raining or sun shining (Egal ob es regnet oder die Sonne scheint) My love will stay and fight till the end (Meine Liebe bleibt und kämpft bis zu Ende) Coz that is what love really means. (W...

Hello God, I missed you. I am sorry I went astray. I am sorry I kept on ignoring you. And now I am on my lowest, I do not have any other person to turn to. Because I don't think other people would understand me. I know it's only You who can understand me and accept me despite my flaws. I know You will not turn me down because You are always full of love. I think I understand now how You feel everytime I ignore You. I know now how bad You feel when You wanted to talk with me but I always keep myself busy of these worldly things. Then when I do not get what I want, I am mad at You. I had the taste of my own medicine. I am truly sorry. I now know why You bled so hard yet You still lived. It is so painful. The bleeding would not stop. Yet I am still alive. Please God help me to get through this. I am weak. You are my strength. Please help me stand and be strong. Please God, sit beside me and keep me company. I am in so much pain, I need someone to be there for me as I cry all the p...

Was ist mit uns geworden? Ich weiß gar nicht mehr. Ich versuche immer die beste zu machen, Trotzdem sind für dich nicht genug. Warum bin ich immer, die einzige zu verändern? Wenn du so wenig versucht hast, um zu verändern? Ich fühle mich zu schwer, Dass du mit mir böse bist, Und nur wegen deinem Laster Mit dem bin ich eifersüchtig. Wenn du mehr Zeit für mich hast, Dann wäre ich sehr glücklich. Ich möchte nur sagen, Wie ich mich wirklich fühle. Im Moment bin ich müde, Und mein Herz schmerzt so viel. Ich vermisse dich. Ich vermisse die Vergangenheit. Ich hoffe, dass du in Zukunft wieder hier bist. Weil ich dich liebe. Ich warte auf dich. Egal ob ich lange auf dich warten muss. Egal ob mein Herz immer schmerzt. Egal ob ich sterbe. Weil ich dich liebe. Ich liebe dich. Bitte komm zurück.

I'm tired. I am tired from crying. I am tired from thinking where do I really belong. But I will fight for you. No matter how painful it may seem. No matter if you see it or not. I will fight. I will forever hold on your words of love. I will forever believe. I will blindfold myself and go on following. I have given you my vow. And you gave me yours. Therefore I will hold on that vow. And stay and love you until forever. Even if it hurts. Even if I have to cry everyday. Even if you do not see what I do for you. Even if you don't believe. I will be here to hold you. To love you. To care for you. To fight for you. I love you until the end of time.

This morning, I had made a very important decision that shall change my future in so many ways. I told my husband about it and I'm so glad and lucky that he is happy with my decision and is willing to support me all the way. I've decided to pursue my Masters degree in Chemistry. For months, I have been thinking about it. I have actually thought of just doing the Ausbildung in order to get a job fast. Worst, I had thought of abandoning my hard-earned degree and start anew. Then just yesterday, while passing my time through the internet, I thought of visiting the website of Goethe University in Frankfurt. Actually, the real reason was to check on the requirements for Germanistik studies. But as I browse the site and the uni-assist site, it all showed me signs that I can actually take Masters even if I had my Bachelor degree from the Philippines! Still, I was thinking twice because Chemistry is not just anything and it really requires concentration and seriousness. However, it occ...

I am being totally irresponsible! My last post here was way back September 2011!!! I guess, I owe some updates here. By the way, I have to warn you against tons of grammatical error because I am not being able to use my English here, as in totally.  A week after my last post, I got a call from the German Embassy and informed me about the good news: my visa was approved! So I went back to Manila that week to submit a copy of my flight details and my passport. Then it took around 3 days and my passport arrived right in front our doorstep! But the stressful days were not done, I had to go to CFO to get my stickers and then had to go for some shopping. To cut it short, I arrived here in Germany on the sixth of October.  Time runs real fast! It's almost 8 months since I came and reside here! It took 3 months though before I get to start on my language course again. It was because there was always no available slot for me. And just last month, I took my exam, DTZ (Deutsch für Zuwand...

I am so grateful that I have met a man like him! I love him until the end of time... :-)

I was bored at home, so I decided to put on my boots and take a short walk. It was also when I filmed my Christmas greetings to my family. :D

October 2011. About a week after I came here in Germany, my ex-colleagues at Emerson Manila (Jena and Jamel) also came for the training! Hence, we went to explore BAMBERG! An old city at the State of Bayern. :D

19th of December, 2011. A simple celebration with the love of my life at a Greek Restaurant. And also chat time with my family back in the Philippines! :D