Life Goes On

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone! it's day before Christmas and I'm still at work...oh well, my tasks are done, I can leave anytime...tamad lang magbyahe...Hello, byahe na nga kaninang umaga, byahe pa din pauwi, ang bait ko nman...sulitin ko na shuttle today,hahaha! be blogging again next year! Have a Happy Holiday everyone! God Bless us all!

yeah, today's my birthday...what happened on my whole birthday?hmmm,nothing special...i went to work the same time, mom woke me up with a gift wrapped in a BARBIE GIFT WRAPPER (yeah, am still her little girl!), and what's inside is my favorite stuff, a NOTEBOOK with cute bubbles design (sooooo childish, thinking am already 24 today, hahaha!)...then i went to work rushing , asking why?coz am almost late!thank God i was able to catch the shuttle... then came tons of workload to finish, hoping to finish all till 5 pm, but here i am, 6:21pm and am still seated here at my desk... things that made me happy on my birthday: 1) my gift from mom... 2)early morning greetings from people closest to my heart (one of them is him!) 3)lunch out with my officemates 4)phone call from ate and her daughter 5)feeling of belongingness here at hicap things i hate about today: 1)my dad is still in the hospital 2)i got tons of workload that i failed to finish 3)i have to render overtime on ...

"as i sit by my window late at night as i look at the stars so bright i see those still memories recalling in tears and the passing of years has gone by as i walk on the street side cold and alone as i watch the street lamps die i see your faces, the fun we all had and oh i'm so glad to have them at heart. from the past until today until the seasons wither till my body succumb to dust we'll never let go in faith, in life that though tomorrow we may live apart believe and understand, we live as one beyond the times, live as one. as i listen to music and sing with the tones as i talk to a friend on the phone i hear those laughters afar and sometimes those tears recalling the moments of remembered years. as i smell those roses in the garden bed as i pick it up close held tight i see your faces the times we all had and oh i'm so glad to have them at heart. see your dreams, take courage on your soul and m...

Thinking back when we first met I remember what you said You said you'd never leave me I let go of your hand Built my castle in the sand But now I'm reachin' out again And I'm not letting go Till you Hold me Mold me Sometimes I feel so all alone See, I gotta find me way back home So why don't you Shape me make me Wah me whiter than the snow I gotta find my way Back home Master upon my knees i pray I just want to be the clay Put your arms around me Place my life in your hands Lord, I know I'm just a man I know you understand This time I'm not letting go Till you Anoint me Appoint me Somstimes I feel so alone See, I gotta find my way back home So why don't you Chastise me Baptize me Wash me whiter than the snow I gotta find my way 'Cause I'm lost and alone I've been wandering Long enough to know Humbly I search for you And I'm not gonna rest Till you Choose me Use me Sometimes I feel so a...

last night, i got home kinda late...and i was surprised on what i found on our desk at the sala...a very cute and colorful card with somewhat alien language written on it...damn electricity was out due to typhoon, so i have to scan the postcard over a candle light (so romantic!,hehehe)...and i was very much overwhelmed when i found out from whom it was...it was from PRINCESS ODY...i was so touched, i was part of her first batch of mailing list..whoa!that was so sweet of you my friend, ody...! and thanks for the German message, i got some refresher course on my language, i need it badly... ;) alright, to continue (waahhhh! it took me 6 days to complete this blog?!?)bear with me, i got a lot of stuff on my desk...it's just now that i got some time to breathe... okay, to continue, i was really touched for that card i received, i didn't expected any from ody, really, i mean, at this time, when everything seems to be done through cyber, i'm now used to receiving e-cards and...

My friends from my previous job aren't believing me that I got my hair straight...So I decided to post a photo blog of me with my newly treated (with scarred scalp) hair... Hope this proves enough that I am no longer the "kulot" gurl my boss usually calls...

wala lang..nagpapatay oras lang...hehehe..na-miss ko lang toh,multiply, myspace, friendster, facebook, blogspot,everything..kasi naman two weeks na hitachi website lang kausap ko sa office, pati pala mga search engines,pero walang blog...<sigh>... na-miss ko online friends ko,really, i did! i never knew ang dami na pala nag-comment at nag-pm sa kin... update about my new job..ayun,tambak ang report, root cause analysis report, training report, development report, pr's, recommendations...may interviews pa (kasi naman kakapasok ko pa lang, may nag-resign na sa team ko,hayz...)...but i enjoy it..am addicted to too much pressure and challenges...mas gusto ko yung di na ko makapagtext or makaupo ng matagal sa sobrang daming pinupuntahan at ginagawa...though, it really saddened me na i have to sacrifice my life online... anyway, you can send me emails naman sa yahoo ( sweeter_ion@yahoo.com ; netchie_28@yahoo.com ; cyrilanne_cuartelon@yahoo.com ) or gmail ( anneville@gmail.com...

Oh well, I'm happy that finally, I got the job that I really want... I passed Hitachi Global Storage Technology and I will be starting with them by next week as a Process Engineer! I'm really grateful I got the job I've been dreaming of... At least I don't have to sleep at work anymore,I got a lot of time for socialization,hehehe...   So now it's moving back to Batangas...I decided to stay at our house rather than to rent coz at least I don't have to do any chores after work (call it "katamaran",hehehe)...   I'm looking forward for my first day! I'm so happy (di naman obvious noh?)!

Ok, so I was tagged by my dearest friend Ody. I got curious about it, but it took me a long while to come up with my own list of weirdness despite the fact that I'm already weird. Being tagged is far much better than having your blog read aloud by your own boss within your office (that was quite embarrassing,no, IT IS SOOOOO EMBARRASSING !)... So I've decided that from now on, I won't post anything on my Friendster blog, hahahaha!(he doesn't have an access on my multiply anyway,so it's safe here!hahaha!) So much for the blah-blah...Let's get this stuff going...All you have to do is list 6 weird things about yourself and tag six people on your list! It's quite that simple, and fun! you'll learn a lot of weird things about your friends,hahaha! And oh, don't forget to leave a comment on their page to let them know that they've been tagged. And here's my 6 Degrees of Weirdness: 1. I hate the taste of pineapple...I dunno why, I just hate it......

yesterday, i had an interview with hitachi global ...(ssshhhh,my boss thought i had a toothache that's why i visited my dentist at medical plaza yesterday,hahahaha..) anyway, it was an interview conducted by the hitachi global 's HR and someone from john clements...wonder why i was there when in fact am enjoying a lot of perks here at prochem (should i really call it perks: medical card, a sack of rice every other month,meal allowance,and what else?!?that's it!).. anyway, so yun na nga, but night before yesterday even until i woke up yesterday, i was still feeling kinda lazy to go, but joanne,the HR from john clements was really persuading me to go,coz the client will only be at their office by 14th,that is yesterday, and that they badly need a chemist...so off i went yesterday,even if i really don't know who their client is,all i know is that it's a multinational company owned by an american (fyi, hitachi is partly owned by japanese and american,they merged with I...

i wanna write something...i wanna share something with my friends, but then, i can't find the words..it seems like my mind's so tired of thinking and worrying and everything...there are a lot of things that's bothering me these past few days, but i just don't know where to start..or better yet, HOW to start...tis the first time i felt like this...billions of emotions and words start to occupy my mind, yet i just can't find the exact word to start this blog... so well, i guess, i'll just leave this entry blank, and worthless...full of words, yet lacking the meaning...i guess, this is the best picture of my current state of mind...MEANINGLESS... <sigh...>

surprise! a lot heard me saying that me and my lola aren't in good terms...as in away lagi sa small stuffs...well, when she visited me here sa apartment, i just gave her back what is due to her,since magbbirthday na din sya,pero syempre sa malapit lang kasi wala pa sweldo at mabagal kumilos lola ko,mabbwisit lang ako...where else,eh di sa market market lang kami...o di ba,parang bata, naaliw sa fountain at sa elephant at lions..nilapitan pa ang lion..hehehehe.. well,even though we don't go along well, she's still my lola...i love her despite her freaking attitude..hahaha!

no, i'm not talking about my lovelife...i'm referring to my work load! yes! as in my work, as in it's already getting to my nerves!!! last night, i left 12midnight..as in MIDNIGHT! and i haven't taken my dinner yet that time! then here it is again today...7:40pm and i'm still here, waiting for my samples which, if they responded immediately to my instructions 2 hours earlier, we're done by now... i know, it's not the operation's fault that the production request was late, it's the sales department who never give strict deadlines to the customers so that we could have ample time to produce their products...but still, even if the request was late, damn!i gave the final instruction 2 hours ago which should only take me an hour to have all the final samples analyzed and refilled..but what did they do?hay...i dunno! i went outside an hour and half ago to check what happened with my instructions, and surprise!!! "di pa namin nalalagay eh, ngayon pa...

i received this message from my colleague/ friend from peoplesupport, irish, way way back .. "sometimes, i wonder if i have a sign taped at my back that says BREAK MY HEART..." when i received it, i thought it was just a simple thought..then a month passed by and while i was scanning through my messages, it suddenly occurred to me that, "hey, this is me!this is exactly what's been happening to me ever since i've learned to love..." too many times, i fell in love...too many times i believed in the magic of love... ..love conquers all... ..love is the most wonderful thing... and a lot of things like that... i fell in and out of love before,and i was never afraid to love again..i was hurt, but still i managed to get up.. but now, i could not understand, why, now that i've grew up and been through a lot of things in this world, when i have told myself, i'm ready for the real one...the one that i meant to keep for the rest of my life...the one i...

Rating: ★★★ Category: Other I was not able to watch it...But, as far as I've heard, I didn't missed a big event (that I expected it to be big!)...I've always admired Tere, but too bad, she was not able to make it...Well, at least, she got the Miss Photogenic award, with prizes similar to a third runner-up winner, not really bad, let's look at the brighter side, she won larger prize ompared to the fourth placer...But I feel bad for she was not able to showcase her wits...Anyway, Miss Universe is not for her, maybe the bar's waiting for her to be the country's number 1 lawyer...And this year's event did not turned out to be big,not because I'm bitter with the results, but simply because the event now is filled with a lot of controversies...I guess, God did allowed Tere not to win to have our country off the issues hovering the said pageant... With all the sponsors, it is justifiable that Miss Japan wins, even if Miss Korea is far more beautiful than this w...

how i wish someone would write me a sweet letter like this...hahaha!dream on, cy! who remembers this letter?it was aired on tv,really loved the content of his letter...changed the name to justify my fantasy,hahahaha! ***************************************************************************** My Dear Cy , One day I will disappear completely. The letters will mean nothing. The world will get tired of me. You will get tired of me. I will get tired of myself. I'm dying. But I will never get tired of you. For you there will be no endings. I will say your name over and over. Like a refrain and a prayer to no one. Then I'll be a flower. The one you'll never pick. And will endure the breathless waiting 'till boundaries disappear. With nothing to do I make new constellations. Images of you as I remember. Dancing, sitting, walking... They are stars from a different view. But still I see nothing but you. Unfurling like a flower. Swiveling like a leaf. I once watched you sleep...

am i right?this is my part three already? it took me a long while that i forgot what step i should be right now... <edited, checked my site again...am right, it's part three!> continuing... now, where am i? am not that far yet, i can still see that place...i can still picture "us" on that place a little while ago...but there's no more turning back...i have to stand firm with my words that i'm through with him...that our story is over...and i have to accept that not all stories have happy ending... got this excerpt from the recently ended tv series here in the Philippines... the lines struck me... "Even if we want it to... Happily Ever After is not always true. If stories end as lives are bound to, then how do you say goodbye to someone you promised forever to? With tears and with sorrow, The never-ending night concedes to tomorrow... For in the end, there is none to find, It is but love that's left behind."   since i've heard and rea...

    i hate this month! two years ago, this was the most memorable month of my life, but now?! i dunno... few days ago, got a message from him... i was delighted, only to feel really down and devastated after the conversation... i felt like the whole world fell on my shoulder... it's like the end of everything for me... i suddenly felt weak...alone...betrayed...and unloved...then i began to ask myself, what's wrong with me? what's missing that keeps them away from me? what is it that they find in me that makes them lost their way and leave me behind? and then i began to question the existence of God (which i know i shouldn't do...) for i could not understand His ways... i could not find the answers...i don't know why He keeps on placing me into trials, my whole life through...pakiramdam ko tuloy my whole life is a mess, a series of mistakes that could never ever be corrected, no matter how hard i try to...     eto pa, akala ko i'm very much blessed with...

My Angel, Thanks for the memories shared with me. Thanks for the moments, even if those were just stolen moments and even if that was only for a short while. Thanks for making me feel loved even if I know those are lies. Thanks for the lessons you taught me and for being there at my side when I am at my weakest… Thanks for making me laugh during my most difficult times, and for making me cry reminding me that I could never have everything that I want to have, including you… Sorry for the times when I became so fickle-minded. Sorry for the times when I caused you so much pain and sufferings. Sorry I came into your life and made you so miserable, I never intended to hurt you this way… Sorry for all of my shortcomings… I will surely miss the old times, the moments under the rain... the movies…the stories, sad and happy…the arguments…I will surely miss you and everything that we have done together and shared… I hope you’d be happy now… I hope you’d find your true happiness…not just a tempo...

and yeah, so my heart was right...i won't be  able to completely move on this time... he will still try to have me back and i will still take him back...yeah,all that was playing on my mind came true...   and yeah,moving forward ceaseed for me as of the moment...i still want to savor the moments with him...stolen moments that makes my life completely happy...

so it was a very difficult vacation for me...four consecutive days back home...i really had a terrible vacation...i have to pretend i'm fine,i have to leave the house all the time...but it's all worth it...finally, i'm somewhat used to this life,well, that's what moving on is for,geting used to the pain and the loneliness...probably the play helped as well,eventhough getting involved to that means seeing and getting attached again to my past that i had been running away from, the past that led me to this fate i am locked right now...if only i never fell to that past,i would have not ran away and fell to this mess i'm trying to get out of right now...sigh, my life had been a series of complicated events, one event to another...when will all this end?going back,so this is finally mys econd step, no phone call from him, no text messages,nothing...and i did very great not to call him myself nor text him,whew!that was so difficult,boring myself with songs,and sleeping th...

and then you said, you want the space...you want to be alone and balance everything...you said you can no longer love me the same way i do for you... so i let you walk away..i let you be who you are just to see you happy again... and then after a week, you came back..wearing the same old smile, saying hi as if nothing ever happened that brought tears to my eyes a week ago...but i have to pretend i'm fine...i have to show you life goes on...that i can be okay even without you by my side... you said it's so good to hear i can go on...you said you're glad i'm taking the steps of moving on...towards a life of "you" and "me" and no longer the "us" that i had been used to for a year and ten months...yeah, it's good to hear...too good that you can longer hear the deafening sound of my breaking heart...then, you walked away,without a word...i shouted asking if i can still count on you, if i can still run to you when fate would never be good for...