Life Goes On

I miss working as a process engineer. My short stay at HGST (then Hitachi) was my most dramatic and unforgettable work experience. If ever I am still living in the Philippines and somebody would ask me to go back, maybe I'll really consider going back, provided that Sir Pepot will be my manager. Maybe he was right, one thing that triggered me to resign was that reorganization. Because if not, if it is the work in general, then I won't be writing anything this time. I miss being a simple me at work, where I do not have to dress up to impress since I would either wear an electrostatic jacket or cleanroom suit whole day. Where I do not have to worry about having the most expensive shoes I can afford since we are all wearing the same shoes whole day, literally. I miss the stressful days that always starts with a meeting and then a whole day of different challenges and endless responsibilities. I miss waking up early and sleeping late, or worst, being awakened by a phone call after...

Ich weiß nicht mehr, was ich tun muss, um diese Pronomen richtig benutzen zu können. Mit den Präpositionen (mit, bei, nach, zu) habe ich kein Problem aber mit bestimmten Verben und diesen Wechslungspräpositionen (an, in, auf) sind meine Sätze schon ganz chaotisch! Es macht mich schon manchmal ein wenig deprimiert.

We are not really sure, but it is possible that this weekend is the last time we can enjoy the sun with aa temperature of 20 degrees Celsius! So we took the chance and had fun outside.

Ich habe früher gebloggt, dass ich im Krankenhaus war. Mein Hausarzt ist nun jetzt vom Urlaub gekommen und ich habe endlich mit ihm gesprochen. Ich bin ganz fröhlich, weil alle sieht sehr gut aus. Auch mein MRT gab gute Nachrichten. Es ist wirklich nur wegen diesen Steine in meinen Ohren, die verantwortlich für Gleichgewicht. Ich muss nur wieder einen Termin mit meinem HNO Arzt am Januar machen, um einen Weg zu finden, wie diese wieder gut funktionieren. I have blogged a while back that I was in the hospital. My doctor is finally back and I had finally talked with him. I am totally happy that everything seems to be okay. My MRI also gave good news. It is all just because of vertigo. It is not so bad as it seems, I just have to go back to my ENT doctor and find ways to make this part of my ears to function perfectly again.

I remember when I was still working at the call center, I was the bitterest person ever in our account. I was fresh from break up and I cannot accept the fact that he ditched me for another woman. One idle shift, I had a heart to heart talk with my team mate and told me one sound advice, which I ignored and laughed at. She did not directly tell me that advice, rather, she told me her own story. She is happily married with two young boys, and her husband was not her first boyfriend as well. She was also devastated the time she broke up with her first boyfriend, but when she met her husband, everything changed. One time, she crossed paths again with her first boyfriend, and the first thing she told herself, "thank God, I did not marry this guy." I laughed at her and told her she was mean. She then told me these words, "believe me, my dear. When you finally meet your Mr. Right, when your Prince Charming finally finds his way, you'd utter the same words when you see yo...

Finally an application for blogging in Android market that answers all my needs. It allows me to post multiple posts (haven't published anything yet because I got no new photos, but tried it using old photos and it allowed it! I have to delete though since those photos are already published waaaayyy before.), allows me to access my multiple blogs and select which site I would like to post a blog. I got access with the comments, hence if anybody among you would write a comment, I can check it real time and would no longer take me months or even years before realizing that somebody left a comment on one of my posts. Kudos to the developer of this cool application. I am totally satisfied and I could not ask for more. :)

I guess, of all the expats all around the world, I am the only one who has fully integrated myself to the land I chose to migrate, not only on everyday life, but also on not-usual-events such as HOSPITALIZATION. Staying in the hospital is not something new to me, for I used to be a sickly kid. However, system here in Germany is totally different in my homeland, and I was shocked. The day I was admitted was also not so good because the hospital was full. Hence, even if my sickness was not something too serious (based on the initial findings), I have to stay in a room with patients of stroke. A lot of visitors have their curious eyes on me, why a young woman like me is on this station. We got no choice, the doctors wanted to look at me over time hence I have to stay there. I had to stay there for four days, and I found that a bit depressing. Back in the Philippines, at least one family member is allowed to stay with you all throughout the time you are confined in the hospital. I...

“You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.”  ―  C.S. Lewis I came across this quote at goodreads.com and it made me think. For days (or better yet, for months), I have no idea what to do with my life here. I feel depressed and hopeless for I felt like I do not have a bright future here, nor a career to add on my name. I have always blogged that I miss the days when I was still working, when I am busy on some other things. But these days, it's all routinary for me: household jobs. I do not regret being a housewife too, I just find it too boring. I want the excitement back in my life. Sometimes, it feels like my mind is no longer working like it used to be. I tend to be so forgetful on lots of things. My husband himself told me it's because I am not used to doing only domestic jobs, since I am used to thinking analytically. One reason why he is suggesting that I go back in the university, in that way, I can put my mind at work again. However, there...

Since somebody explained it far better than I, I will just quote her here. “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...” ― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

My cousin once mentioned to me that she believes in soulmates. She believes that soulmates does not have to end together in marriage. Though some are lucky enough to marry their soulmates, some finds their soulmates as their "the one who got away" or sometimes they are disguised as a best friend or simply a friend. I laughed at her idea but she strongly believes that I, myself, have a soulmate. It is just so funny that she thought my soul mate is my childhood lover turned best friend. I simply agreed on her just to shut her up and make her forget about it. Then I realized, she is somewhat right. We all have our soulmates. I am not exempted to it. But she got it wrong on who my supposed to be soulmate is. I believe my soulmate is my "the one who got away." I believe he is due to some reasons such as: 1) when I had problem with my ex-boyfriend, he was the only guy who gave his shoulder to cry on. 2) even if we did not have a good past, he ensured that we are going t...

A friend called to ask for apology for the past that did not go well for the two of us. It feels so good to finally find the freedom from anger and pain. Although I have already forgiven him long before he asked for it, it still feels good that he himself acknowledges what he had done in the past. Now that we are on totally different ways, I wish nothing but his own happiness. Despite all the pain and the tears he caused me in the past, he still deserve a life of bliss and love. I've already forgotten all those painful memories, long before I forgave him in my heart. But I guess he is right, whatever it is in the past shall forever be inked in our hearts. Just like tattoos. Even if I try to erase those memories, they'd leave a scar that shall guide me in life. He and I are part of a history, and that history has already been written and completed. I could no longer delete his character because that will change the course of events. He may have hurt me in the past, but if not ...

Few days ago, I had a talk with my mom. She asked me the usual stuffs we talk about when we chat: how I and my husband are, what is the weather here, the weather in the Philippines, my dear dog and our upcoming vacation. Then I told her I have to cut our chat time short because there are lots of stuff I have to do since we were out of town for three days. Then came this old talks that I am not sure whether I would be grateful of or would piss me off. Mom: I bet you got lots of clothes to wash. Me: Yes, and I have to clean the house too. Mom: Don't force yourself to finish everything today. That is one of my worries here. Me: Mom, you have nothing to worry here. First of all, I just have to dump the clothes in the machine and wait for it. Secondly, the apartment is not too big that I'd tire myself to death. I think it'll only take me 30 minutes cleaning up. Mom: When yo start working and I am already there, everything would be easier for you again just like when you wer...

It's August and till now I still do not have a concrete idea what to do with my life here. Soon it would be my first year here in the Land of Beer and Sausages and all I got to accomplish is my completion of integration course by passing the language exam for migrants with a B1 level rating and the political overview exam with only one failure. One may say, those are great accomplishments, why this whining? Well, first of all, this language test for migrants is just half higher than my last Goethe Institut exam that I passed, hence it is just like I repeated my Start Deutsch 2 exam and perfected it this time instead of mere 92 grade. Now I understand why the adviser at the school was a bit hesitant on giving me Module 5 to start at, because my last Goethe certificate eligibles me to a higher module but then, the foreign office required me to complete the Module 5-6 at the VHS. It was still the best thing anyway, because I got to improve my listening and speaking skills, the worst f...

I started this new blog (sorry, the world wide web contains tons of my blogs already, most are already forgotten sites via Weebly and Wordpress). The blog has the URL of http://cykocht.blogspot.com (after thousand times of experimenting on lots of blogsites, I came to realize that Blogger is the best free blogsite so far, and I am sticking to it). This blog is intended as a recipe site. It is not because I am a good cook or whatever but rather for me to have a place where I put on my experimented dishes so that in time, I can go back to it and alter some steps or ingredients to improve its taste. If I have it published publicly, maybe somebody would stumble upon it and try it themself and criticize it, in that way I will be able to see where I went wrong as a cook. I could say that this new blog is full of CONFIDENCE. Not just because I boldly share to the world some of my experimented dishes, but also because I am writing the introduction, ingredients and the procedure in GERMAN. One ...

I thank Him for protecting my husband yesterday from a big possibility of accident. He drove yesterday to work without checking his car. Well, for short distance travels and going to work, we don't really check our car before leaving. But as soon as he made his turn from the garage, he heard a loud "bang!" (I was still asleep when he left), but he thought it was just the jug of water at the compartment. So he drove off. He drove at 130-140 kph from house to the Autobahn for almost half an hour when he noticed that the car is somewhat unstable and swerves. He took the exit twice shorter than his usual exit. At the traffic light, he alighted the car and checked the rear of the car. The tyres seems to be fine as he checks. He kicked the left rear tyre and it was fixed. He went to the right rear tyre and kicked it too, it moved. The light turned green, and he thought to himself, I'll check when I get to the office. And drove 10km more with a swerving car. Upon arrival at ...

I am so lucky to have my husband. There has no other guy in this world who understands my tantrums and my insecurities better than him. He accepts me despite all my flaws and helps me go through all these difficulties as a foreigner. I am so happy that I met him and I have him for the rest of my life. I just wanted the world to know how much I am blessed to have my husband, the one who never lets me down and accepts me for who I am. I love Mr. Uwe Wussow so much! I am so proud to have him as my husband! :)

Officially, I am 9 months and five days here in Germany. I admit, I still do not have someone who I can call my "new friend." I still hang out most of the time with my husband. I tried to follow a fellow Expat Blog forumer's advice in order to get going here: to register on various international forums and sites and meet up with people there. I did, I am a member of Expat Blog, InterNations, Philippinen Portal Forum, and Pinay in Deutschland group page on Facebook. I receive lots of meet up invites, especially thru InterNations, but I have not yet gone into one. My husband is totally supportive about this, but it is I who have a problem. You may wonder whether I have friends back in my homeland. Of course I do, but those people I consider as friends would only sum up to 50 maximum. Contrary to what they say, that Filipinos are friendly people, I admit I am not. These friends of mine, I became friends with them because they never stopped winning me as their friend. They ar...

I am somewhat a film addict. However, I must admit I do not really like all. But when one film catches my interest, I wanted to own it so that I can watch it anytime I want. My husband is also the same. We both like some Hollywood films, the only difference is, he wanted to see it in German rather than in original English. I can understand him because he has no formal English training and it would be difficult to understand the context when you do not speak the language. Hence, I decided to scout some films that I love and let him watch it too so that he'll understand a part of me. And we do it too vice versa. For some films I am lucky enough that the German companies retained the English titles such as 50 First Dates, Shrek, Hop, Hangover, Rat Race, etc. or directly translates the title from English to German such as My Best Friend's Wedding (Hochzeit meines besten Freundes), Bruce Almighty (Bruce Allmächtig), Pink Panther (Rosa Panther), The Devil Wears Prada (Der Teufel trä...

In my 28 years of existence, I came to realize what philosophy really is. It is not something that we must follow because the philosophers before us said it. What the philosophers in the past had said, they should only serve as a guide for us to find our own philosophy. We are created having the most wonderful talent, rationalizing, hence we must make good use of it. We must rationalize from within and find the meaning of our lives. Hence, I came down with the following as my philosophy. It may have been said before by some philosophers, and some may not agree on what the norms believe, but I am entitled to these, because I am a rationalized being, and I have the right to philosophize. 1. Things do not change. It is our perspective that changes. An apple is an apple until the end, it does not become a pear at any point of its life. It only ripens and eventually rottens, and we as individuals are the ones who give this state to it. It is our perspective that says when an apple is good t...

My friend posted this status on his page: "I used to dream of being a musician. Now that I am old, will I still be able to pursue it?" Without hesitation, I commented and told him that age should never be a hindrance on chasing one's dream. This topic inspired me to write this blog. When I was two years old and the elders would ask me what I wanted to be when I grow up, my answer was very simple and sounds stupid: I wanted to be a sales lady. I am not quitr sure why I answered that. While other kids of my age would say they wanted to be doctors or nurses to cure the ill, pilots or stewards to travel the world, my answer was to be a sales lady simply because I find them fashionable and pretty. However, unlike my friends whose dreams never changed till they grow old, mine transformed into totally different goal in life: as I started to learn the ABCs and be able to write them, I realized I wanted to be a writer. I found the beauty of words and how fashionable they seem to b...

When I read the title of an article (please click  here ) a day ago, I cringed instead of being proud. I mean, seriously, Philippines lent $1B to the euro zone fund? I thought, "is this really my homeland or there is another Philippines in this world?" However, after reading through it, I know I am not dreaming. It is indeed about our BSP's (Banko Sentral ng Pilipinas or CBP for Central Bank of the Philippines) recent activity. As far as I know, we are still a third-world country (any economist/ financial analyst can correct me here). There are a lot of other things that the BSP should work on in the Philippines alone. What they claimed in the article that our economy is not that bad anymore unlike in the past is for most Filipinos an illusion. While the malls and high-rise condominium buildings, the facade of the economic status, increases in number, the infrastructures that the majority of the Filipinos need decreases. It would have been a good news if there are no high...

I am so grateful I was still there. Eventhough we do not always agree with each other, I still love her. She's so beautiful even on her old age.

The famous Brothers Grimm are Hessisch! One of the house where they lived and wrote some of their works is just 11 km away from us! A Little Trivia: Snow White story is based on real people. The girl which inspired them about Snow White lived in Lohr am Main, the next County to Main-Kinzig-Kreis. The place where she lived with the dwarves is said to be in Bieber, Biebergemünd (yes, the next village to us), and they were said to be the miners. In old times, the miners were small people (compared to a natural height of Germans) that's why they were called dwarves. In Lohr was also this factory that manufactures mirrors, that inspired the character of Magic Mirror. The wandering path along the series of mountains from Schloss Lohr am Main (Lohr Castle, http://www.antenne.de/Schneewittchen-Schlo%C3%9F%20in%20Lohr%20am%20Main%20__schoeneorte_233923_news.html ) to Bieber, Biebergemünd is called Schneewittchenwandernweg (Snow White's Path) and is approximately 35 km, one of the famo...

Uwe's first time in the Philippines! That was also the time when he told my family he wants to marry me ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!!! :D

First real spring for me. I am always here during Fall and Winter.

Dresden, Moritzburg, Meissen, Radeburg. Pentecost weekend with hubby and some Emerson guys from USA.

Our marriage is like anybody's marriage. We have fun times together wherein we laugh out loud like two crazy people. We have serious times together when we would exchange our thoughts and opinions over the current events in Germany and in the whole world. We fight, so often than you could imagine, over reasons that are sometimes already categorized as unreasonable. I am not proud of that. As much as possible I do not want to fight. But there are things I am proud of that I hope all other relationships in this world would have: trust and communication. It is not really easy to give more than a hundred percent trust on your partner. Especially in my case, we have totally different culture, and he had a lot of past to tell. Despite it all, I decided to give him my full trust. I believe and hold on to his words that "he had already seen the world." Sometimes, we fight over his habit of staying up too late because of computer game or simply the internet. As somebody who grew u...

Around the neighborhood and inside our house. Just everything Biebergemündisch... :)

Coco, Cuhcuh, Koko... So many spellings of his nickname, but his real name is All Nam-Nam (name given and registered by Aries of Bluebox). I adopted him last year, 29th of April. It was not planned, we went at Aries's house, not because we wanted to buy a dog, but because my husband needs to buy a pack of cigarette! We saw the ad by their gate that there are already puppies ready for adoption. We asked Aries's father if we can see the puppies. He was so kind and took Coco and his sister out. Coco was so sweet, he immediately came to hubby and licked him. We both fell in love with Coco, not only because he's sweet but also because he's a male! (We do not want a female dog actually.) So we asked how much does the adoption costs. Aries was so nice, he gave us a discount because he said we're neighbors and because Coco seems to like us immediately (other people might charge us higher because my hubby is a foreigner, but Aries did the other way). So there! He's so lo...

Ody went to visit us. The planned Cologne trip was changed to Mainz. Not bad at all.

We were so lucky to be able to watch the said-to-be Game of the Season! Who would have thought that Stuttgart can match the strongest team, Dortmund. First half time was 2:0 for Dortmund. On the second half time, Stuttgart made 2 goals in 10 minutes! Then it was a running goals for the two teams. At 89 minutes, the score was 4:3 for Dortmund. Klopp was already rejoicing for he thought they already won, but wait! There was 3 minutes after game due to fouls and fireworks. 2 seconds before the referee called in a night: Stuttgart made a goal! That was the most number of goals ever made for the season. :) Thanks to Lothar Ott for the tickets. :)

I noticed that most people here go out to take a walk on New Year's day. I don't know what it means, but I was envious. So my husband took me for a walk... Our destination: The Middlepoint of European Union in Meerholz. :)

So I have posted a poem today for my husband for the reason that we got into a fight the night before yesterday. That was also the reason why there was a lot of hatred posts before today, I am sorry, I was carried away by my emotions. Anyway, I am not quite sure if I should write more in German so that he can fully understand my thoughts or just write in the language I am most comfortable:English and Filipino. It is because I still do not have the full confidence to use the German language. The translation I wrote there was purely rough. I am fully aware I got lots of error there. Still, I decided to publish it despite and inspite of errors it contains. I mean, one cannot learn without committing any mistake. Anyway, I had blogged once that my DTZ exam was near. Today, I am proud to say that I have passed it! I am now certified that I can read, speak and write in B1 level of German! Here is the CEFR (Common European Framework of Reference) description of B1: Can understand the main poi...

All the dramas are through (Alle Dramen sind vorbei) All the tears are dried (Das Weinen hat schon beendet) We found a way to compromise (Kompromise wird endlich gefunden) Love has won the fight. (Die Liebe hat den Kampf gewonnen). I am smiling now (Ich bin nun so glücklich) The heavy weight is gone (Das Gewicht wird weggenommen) Love is truely magical (Die Liebe ist wirklich magisch) And I am glad I found love. (Und ich bin froh, dass ich verliebt bin). If you happen to read this,my baby (Wenn du,mein Baby, liest den) Rest assured all is back to normal (Versichere dir, alles wieder okay) What happened in the past is past (Was passiert ist,ist schon vorbei) What is important is the now. (Die wichtigste ist was wir jetzt sind). I love you and I always will (Ich liebe dich und es ist für immer) Be it raining or sun shining (Egal ob es regnet oder die Sonne scheint) My love will stay and fight till the end (Meine Liebe bleibt und kämpft bis zu Ende) Coz that is what love really means. (W...

Hello God, I missed you. I am sorry I went astray. I am sorry I kept on ignoring you. And now I am on my lowest, I do not have any other person to turn to. Because I don't think other people would understand me. I know it's only You who can understand me and accept me despite my flaws. I know You will not turn me down because You are always full of love. I think I understand now how You feel everytime I ignore You. I know now how bad You feel when You wanted to talk with me but I always keep myself busy of these worldly things. Then when I do not get what I want, I am mad at You. I had the taste of my own medicine. I am truly sorry. I now know why You bled so hard yet You still lived. It is so painful. The bleeding would not stop. Yet I am still alive. Please God help me to get through this. I am weak. You are my strength. Please help me stand and be strong. Please God, sit beside me and keep me company. I am in so much pain, I need someone to be there for me as I cry all the p...

Was ist mit uns geworden? Ich weiß gar nicht mehr. Ich versuche immer die beste zu machen, Trotzdem sind für dich nicht genug. Warum bin ich immer, die einzige zu verändern? Wenn du so wenig versucht hast, um zu verändern? Ich fühle mich zu schwer, Dass du mit mir böse bist, Und nur wegen deinem Laster Mit dem bin ich eifersüchtig. Wenn du mehr Zeit für mich hast, Dann wäre ich sehr glücklich. Ich möchte nur sagen, Wie ich mich wirklich fühle. Im Moment bin ich müde, Und mein Herz schmerzt so viel. Ich vermisse dich. Ich vermisse die Vergangenheit. Ich hoffe, dass du in Zukunft wieder hier bist. Weil ich dich liebe. Ich warte auf dich. Egal ob ich lange auf dich warten muss. Egal ob mein Herz immer schmerzt. Egal ob ich sterbe. Weil ich dich liebe. Ich liebe dich. Bitte komm zurück.

I'm tired. I am tired from crying. I am tired from thinking where do I really belong. But I will fight for you. No matter how painful it may seem. No matter if you see it or not. I will fight. I will forever hold on your words of love. I will forever believe. I will blindfold myself and go on following. I have given you my vow. And you gave me yours. Therefore I will hold on that vow. And stay and love you until forever. Even if it hurts. Even if I have to cry everyday. Even if you do not see what I do for you. Even if you don't believe. I will be here to hold you. To love you. To care for you. To fight for you. I love you until the end of time.

This morning, I had made a very important decision that shall change my future in so many ways. I told my husband about it and I'm so glad and lucky that he is happy with my decision and is willing to support me all the way. I've decided to pursue my Masters degree in Chemistry. For months, I have been thinking about it. I have actually thought of just doing the Ausbildung in order to get a job fast. Worst, I had thought of abandoning my hard-earned degree and start anew. Then just yesterday, while passing my time through the internet, I thought of visiting the website of Goethe University in Frankfurt. Actually, the real reason was to check on the requirements for Germanistik studies. But as I browse the site and the uni-assist site, it all showed me signs that I can actually take Masters even if I had my Bachelor degree from the Philippines! Still, I was thinking twice because Chemistry is not just anything and it really requires concentration and seriousness. However, it occ...

I am being totally irresponsible! My last post here was way back September 2011!!! I guess, I owe some updates here. By the way, I have to warn you against tons of grammatical error because I am not being able to use my English here, as in totally.  A week after my last post, I got a call from the German Embassy and informed me about the good news: my visa was approved! So I went back to Manila that week to submit a copy of my flight details and my passport. Then it took around 3 days and my passport arrived right in front our doorstep! But the stressful days were not done, I had to go to CFO to get my stickers and then had to go for some shopping. To cut it short, I arrived here in Germany on the sixth of October.  Time runs real fast! It's almost 8 months since I came and reside here! It took 3 months though before I get to start on my language course again. It was because there was always no available slot for me. And just last month, I took my exam, DTZ (Deutsch für Zuwand...

I am so grateful that I have met a man like him! I love him until the end of time... :-)

I was bored at home, so I decided to put on my boots and take a short walk. It was also when I filmed my Christmas greetings to my family. :D

October 2011. About a week after I came here in Germany, my ex-colleagues at Emerson Manila (Jena and Jamel) also came for the training! Hence, we went to explore BAMBERG! An old city at the State of Bayern. :D

19th of December, 2011. A simple celebration with the love of my life at a Greek Restaurant. And also chat time with my family back in the Philippines! :D

Last night, I was staring outside our window and crying. Honestly, I always have this bad mood since I came here in Germany last October. I thought it was brought about only by the weather since October was fall season and then came winter. However, these past few days had been warmer, hitting the temperature scale as high as 30°C, almost feels like Batangas, Philippines. Despite the warmth of spring, I still get this odd feeling every once in a while, to the point that little things irritates me big time. Sometimes I would not want to talk. Sometimes, I feel happier when my husband is at work and I am all alone. Sometimes I wish my mom and my dog are my constant companions instead of him. It sometimes feels like I have decided too early to get on this marriage. But I know far better than giving up. This old Filipino saying, "ang pag-aasawa ay hindi parang mainit na kanin na iluluwa mo kapag napaso ang dila mo," (marriage is not like a hot porridge that you eat and when it bu...

I used to not like art. I tried since grade school days to at least love to draw, but I always end up in frustration. I realized that art is not on my blood, hence I avoided it all in the past, which is actually easy to do in the Philippines. It is because, in order to see real great art, you must be ready to spend some amount of money, which is sadly a difficult thing for me. Until I got an opportunity to travel to Germany. First impression: wow! Europe is for me a very  large museum, with Germany as the section for middle age art. I fell in love and my appreciation for art came back. I haven't seen it all yet in Europe, but so far, I am already satisfied. The grandiose cathedrals and schloss are enough for me to say how great are the masterminds of these buildings. The modern times would of course not let it pass, even the modern graffittis have something to say. They are not just graffittis made by kids, they are skillfully made too, to match the grandiosity at the background. I...

16.April 2012 um 23:10 Uhr Nothing new. Back to school and same old things sa school. Ah, oo nga pala yung mga girls na minsang narinig namin na may discriminating words na sinigaw sa min, they came to talk to us to clear things up. Buti na lang at nag-initiate sila, now we feel a little safer at school. Tim, my stepson, is sick. Dumugo yung pusod nya. Parang hemorrhoids ang findings at kelangan sya operahan. Kaso ayun, parang ako, may exam din sya, kaya sa 25.May pa sya nagpasched magpaopera. Pero kung ako sya, papaopera ko na agad yun bukas na bukas din. Ayoko nga makakita ng dugo lagi sa katawan ko. Isa yun sa mga bagay na ayoko makita nor mahawakan. Hihimatayin ako, promise. Nung tumawag sila sa kin na nasa hospital sila, kinabahan ako, kala ko si Uwe ang sinugod, at least di naman at buti na lang di ganun kalala yung sakit ni Tim. Thanks be to God pa din. At pagdating ko sa bahay, konting linis at laba at tulog ako ng tanghali. Nagising lang ako nung dumating si Ralf, dala ang pap...

It’s six months and six days Since I left home And flew thousand miles To start a new home. It has only been months But it feels like years Wondering each day How back home, things has been. There are still more days to live And events to attend here Before I can finally say, I’m back to my home sweet escape. I may have a new place called home But the place I’ve been for years before Can never be compared To where I am now. The warmth, laughter and tears These things are always missed. As the cliché goes, There’s no place like home.

I just want to vent out something: I think I am the only one among my friends and family who does not have Instagram account/ app installed on my gadget, and does not have any plan to get it in the future. Why? It is because for me, whatever Instagram offers to its fans/ customers, I can also get in my Tumblr account, and editing I can do it with other apps as well. Plus I am not someone who loves to instantly post photos as soon as I clicked the shutter, usually I would look at it hundreds of time on my phone and then transfer it on my PC and review it again then edit it and share it to the world or simply save it on my PC. I learned how to keep some parts of my life in private since I set my feet on Germany grounds, and it feels good when there are still parts of my adventures here that my family and friends back home does not know. There will always be something to talk about when I go visit them anytime soon. And now that Facebook is acquiring Instagram, I got more reasons not to g...

In few days, it's gonna be over. March will finally come to keep us company, bringing along a beautiful spring. I, honestly, am excited for it. I had enough of the negative temperature days, I long to see the sun and finally wear skirts (yay! I miss skirts!). Spring means new life and I am welcoming it with open arms! I had promised, since the day I started this blog, that I will be treading this path with my head held up and a smile painted on my face. I promise to look beyond the façade of ugliness that is trying to hover over the beauty of life. And I realized that I really can do it. There had been situations in my life this month that was really hard to be happy. New environment because I started to go back to school, new people challenging my patience and friendliness everyday, different cultures that make it hard for me to adapt and make friends that easily. I almost gave up, I wanted to go back home. It was so difficult for me, I got to see real life, and being happy was a ...

What have you planned for this day? By us is simple: my husband will drive to work while I spend half my day conjugating verbs and learning new vocabularies. In the evening, we might eat something we both crave for, grilled pork or chicken maybe and drink a few glasses of red wine. We planned not to go out for dinner because the weather is crazy! A little bit warmer temperature but lots of snow! Hence, better for us to enjoy the night in our warm apartment. Anyway, everyday is already Valentines day when we're together. :-) If you are single, don't feel so low, celebrate this day with your parents instead. The main thought for this day is all about LOVE, no matter to whom that love is meant for. Important thing is we all celebrate the wonderful feeling called LOVE. Happy Valentines Day World!

One thing I love about winter: SNOW. Despite the below freezing point temperature, which can be as low as -25 degrees Celsius, Winter is one of my favorite season, next to it is Autumn. I love to watch snow slowly falling down from the sky. However, our location is considered one of the hottest place in Germany, hence snow is not that too often nor too many. Nevertheless, when it starts to fall, I love to sit by the window and stare at it. It is so magical, how it glistens at night and how light they seems to be. Just there, floating in the air, taking their time to fall on earth. Then, after a few minutes, everything is so peaceful, so white and beautiful! It feels so soft under your feet and so fine between your fingertips. It seems like you suddenly are in Wonderland, it's so magical! It is like telling me to take everything easy, never hurry on anything, for no matter how long it may seem, you'll get there, to your destination, because that is how God had planned everything...

Today is the day of remembering that special day, three years ago. That was on the evening of  5th of February, when I finally reciprocated his love to me. I never expected it to be this enchanting and lasting. I thank God for sending him along my way. I have never been this happy and contented all my life. I will always be in love with my husband no matter what age we are.

A Large Chair at Freizeit Park in Büdingen First, I had this new blog, then I decided to look at the brighter side of my life. I did not realize before that positive thinking yields positive results. Truly, it does not hurt to wait for a while, for God is always at work for something good for all of us. I almost feel so down because I had been here in Germany for 3 months now and still not able to start my language classes. It is because there is always no available slot for me. I really want to give up and fly back to the Philippines. Staying at home all day and not able to meet other people or go to other places makes me feel really low. However, everything's going to change starting next week. My husband talked to the school and they found a slot for me! Yes, finally! I can go back to school and get busy on something - learning and nurturing my German. Maybe some of you wonder why is it so important for me. Well, for one reason, German language is such a very important...

I used to be a grumpy one. It seems like nothing ever pleases me. I always felt like the world has turned its back on me. My best friend used to say I am a sad person not because I am always in deep sh*t, but because I always failed to see the beauty in my life. Before, I could not understand her, what beauty in my life had she seen in mine that I failed to see. I am an illegitimate child, though I was able to carry my dad's name by law, all my childhood Christmases and New Years were spent only with my mom. Then, just these past few days, I decided to list down the blessings I had in the past that I forgot to be thankful of: I am alive! My mom gave life to me despite the complicated future awaiting us. Despite the fact that I didn't see my dad that often in the past, he still sent me to the best schools in town. My mom is still there to fight for me and take care of me, even if she got all the right to breakdown and abandon me. My grandpa was always there for me, and f...