Life Goes On

Have you been to the Philippines, or at least had lived most of your life in this country? Have you experienced this event that I call "Circus"? I am talking not about the circus show that are normally seen on Fiesta, wherein they showcase rare, and out of this world talents. This circus show has more than those flying trapeze, or  man-eating fire. To give you the clearer picture, let me describe you this circus with some photos I got over the internet: need i say more? it's colorful! despite all the notices that the COMELEC gives, that major streets must be cleared from all these paraphernalia, but what do we see everyday? Another sad thing that I noticed were those banners hanging around our barangay hall, bearing some names of politicians. My cousin did mentioned to me also, a very big banner along E.Rodriguez Avenue (yup, it's an AVENUE where it is prohibited) bearing the FACE AND NAME OF THE RICHEST PRESIDENT-WANNABE (you just do the guessing, i would not g...

last week, we were hit by a 6.1 earthquake, while we were on the 32nd floor of our building. it was indeed terrifying. i mean, i had been trained since grade school on what to do in case of fire, but in case of earthquake, that's the most frightening thing for me.at my seat, you can hear the glass shaking and seems like it'll break anytime, the posters and the blinds were swaying really endless, my office chair DID moved. my heart's skipping a beat, i knew that time i am going to have nervous breakdown at any minute. but i have to look calm, for i am part of the ERT, and number one on the list to do is DO NOT PANIC (but at the back of my mind, i want to run through that exit and evacuate). i can't remember what i kept on saying, i could not even remember if i did called on Him. just few days ago, when it happened, and tomorrow's going to be Palm Sunday. the time when Jesus was welcomed warmly in Jericho, but executed afterwards. the day that marks the start of Hol...

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This afternoon, I had a meeting with my senior engineer. I thought I was going to be reprimanded for not following the dress code for a week last week. To my surprise, it was not. It was about what my supervisor told me yesterday, of being a QMS Controller. If I am in a manufacturing company, I might say yes right away, being a QMS is something. It adds to the beauty of a resume of an engineer / chemist/ physicist. However, this case was a little different. Knowing my team mates for quite a while now, I had to think twice about this thing. Actually, it was offered to me since day 1, but I always end up changing the topic. This time around, I was cornered, via an ambush meeting. The way my senior broke to me the news was quite funny, it's like leaving me without any choice. He laid in front of me all the tasks of a QMS controller, and the management who will be the contact outside of the team, and that the training would be on Monday. Then, he said, but all of these will only be if...

i had always wanted to see Alice on 3D, but it's kinda sad naman if i'm alone... so i tagged my mom along, coz if i am to spend another 400 bucks, isn't it best to spend it and make mom experience IMAX as well? so there, i treated mom to a movie date. i know Alice has been on for a week now, but i am never a fan of first day screenings, or their first week. i always wait for the second or third day of showing it, at least it isn't that crowded. mom and i were too early, i had reserved for the 4pm screening, so we waited na lang by the IMAX lobby (at North Edsa). and yeah, i'm wearing my "JA!" shirt... my one and only red shirt... hehehe... IMAX at north edsa is not bad, though i think IMAX MOA is wider... well, it's because of the space i guess... but it's okay, staffs are accomodating, and it's well maintained, except for one incident wherein i think 5 people were telling we were seated at the wrong seat (no only i plus the 4 individuals be...

when you truly love someone, just a thought of him out of your life shatters every bits and pieces of you, your body... your soul... i miss you U... so much... can't you fly right by my side that fast? as in right now, right here...

thoughts: in 9 days time, my countdown will be reduced to one year... officially dumped that project (AWOL if that is a job requiring me to report everyday) after doing so, i realized that this is not the kind of job for me... i do love writing, but i hate writing stuffs that i am not really interested at... now am back to base one thinking of any way/ job to earn extra income... am not sure if i am ready to take the Start Deutsch 1, though i had faired this morning in a sample exercise... we'll see on the mock exam next week what would my life be at germany a year from now? fears: fear of unbelongingness when i get to germany fear of not getting any job when i get there fear of not meeting my mom's expectation about my life fear of the unknown once i live in a strange land fear that i will not meet U's expectations of me are these still part of QLC? but am 26 now...

after such a long time, i have always been pondering about what my life would have been, should i chose not to take chemistry, and pursue my interest in writing as a career. and then, just yesterday, i gave writing a try... some may have thought that i already have writing as a career, for i am working as a technical writer, but no, i mean some other forms of writing. with my work kasi, i am free to choose the date of my deadline, but of course, there is still the metrics for my annual appraisal to think of, so i always give pressure to myself, and not my boss giving pressure on me. so i tried something that is close to real work of a writer. i had been a member of gaf for years now, and i just thought of browsing through their projects last night. and i was surprised to win a bid, and needless to say, as his ads says, start right away. and whoa! i was overwhelmed with my first assignment: 6 articles in a day! i think i overestimated my time and myself when i placed that bid. 0_o n...

things accomplished so far: 1. worked on my motivation a little (yey! finally was able to make myself productive, starting last Monday)... 2. i am soon finish with my A1.3 in German, only 5 meetings left, and then SD1 exam. 3. am already on the third book of Philip Pullman, glad I am able to minimize now the number of books waiting to be read here at home, just a little more time, i can purchase anew. 4. never had any paranoia attack... wohoo! no fights in last weeks/ months. things i must accomplish for the remaining days of the year: 1. lunch/ dinner with friends. 2. muster the game of excitement without expecting. 3. spare some more. 4. read more. 5. pass my SD1 with flying colors. 6. attend A2.1 7. write more 8. finish my "novel". 9. fly to germany and vienna on November (i want!!! badly!)

yup, i did! i was pre-reg to the event at fully booked, and where was i by 4pm? by SM north edsa, waiting in line to have my phone upgraded, but deymn! the firmware is not available... so i'm stucked with my old phone, old firmware, and same sickness... PLUS! boycott for the 3rd time ang travel writing workshop... next time, i'd never pre-enroll na nga... i was able to write travel thingies naman, kahit panu... next news, upcoming START DEUTSCH 1... well, reena is asking me to take it with her on the 15th of April... yesterday, i was kinda thinking twice, but today, after the class (yes, we finally finished the 14 chapters for level 1!), and started with some reviews, i had a little confidence to register and take the exams by the 15th, though, the self esteem is so low... then, had a little conversation with our librarian, and he said, if i passed the exam sample in the website, i would definitely get through it... plus, he said, we at Saturday class are most likely to pass,...

hooray to my 130th post! which is not the truth, for if someone do remembers, i had said few months ago that i am bidding blogger goodbye, and during that time of depression, i deleted a lot of post, as in a lot... well, one big reason why i thought of deleting this was because of my URL, which is, of course, impossible for me to change now... but now, i've mastered the art of acceptance, and let the URL be just a plain URL, walang arte-arte, wala ng emote... lately,  i've noticed that i've frequented more here, than my facebook and twitter... which is, a good news for me! i am able to write longer articles again (i am active at triond again)... but, despite the interest going back into me, i'm still having a hard time completing my novel, my first ever attempt to write a novel, but there, i'm stuck! princess ody . that's the novel i mentioned before when i am having night mares of the past, such a long overdue novel noh?>  one friend at my lot had mo...

i am not sure if my procrastination is brought about the season... it's so hot here in the philippines that all i want to do is plunge in the waters... all the feeling of laziness is on me this week... i though cleaning up my work place would help me start my day right, but well, it was only good for 1 hour, now i am back to the "me" these past few weeks... i can't help not to check on the rates and packages going to puerto galera... i am now tempted to go with my girlfriend to puerto, even if it's just the two of us... i wish my boyfriend would fly fast, so i can take that looooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggg vacation i have been saving on up... gotta get back working... 0_o

Comments from pYzam.com these past few days, i did a lot of failure... from technical answers that seems to be unclear and out of this world, to my translations that are now sounding weird... i dunno why, but it's like i'm not being myself... something is definitely wrong, and i am hating it... oh well, i think, it's better to just sleep now and start anew tomorrow... Grab a Graphic from pYzam.com ay, no! just wake me up when it's MARCH 22, 2011... for sure by that time, it's a totally new life... another milestone... another land... another life... ^_^

hiniling ko na makita ang larawan na natatago... bagaman mas uso na ang facebook, pareho tayong may pangalawang friendster na nananatili... ngunit, di mo ako pinagbigyan... ang daming tanong, para bang nasa presinto ako at tinatanong ng paulit-ulit, tipong may gusto kang mapiga mula sa kin... anu bang gusto mo marinig? "gusto ko makita kasi nagseselos ako", ganun ba? eh bakit ko naman sasabihin yan, eh alam mo naman na masaya na ko sa buhay ko ngayon. kung sana noong mga panahon na magulo ka, at aalis ako papuntang alemanya, kung sana nagsabi ka ng totoo, baka naiba pa ang takbo ng kwento ko, at ng kwento mo... pero magulo ka eh, di ko maintindihan... at may ibang tao na ang nakapag-ayos ng buhay ko na inaasahan ko noon na ikaw ang aayos... ngayon, asa malayo ka na din...ikaw naman ngayon ang lumayo... pero kahit ang layo mo, ang dami mo pa ding sinasabi na wala pa ding direksyon... hanggang kelan mo ba itatago ang lahat? hanggang kelan mo gagawing malaking palaisipan ang l...

i was playing around as usual, while procrastinating over these tons of work i have to finish, when i passed by this post and directed me to this newly interesting site, and of course, signed myself up! myLot User Profile that's my profile page, and i hope i can gain more clicks from there... ;-)