Life Goes On

1 2, 1 2 3 4- Give me more lovin' than I've ever had, Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad, Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not, Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you; I love bein' around you. You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4 There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-(I love you) I love you. Give me more lovin' from the very start, Piece me back together when I fall apart, Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends- Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best that I've had, I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you. You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2- 1, 2, 3, 4 There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do- (I love you) I love you. (...

I have my blog inactive for so long, not because I am not in the mood of writing, honestly, I got soooooooo many ideas wasted, but because ALL personal sites are banned here in the office (and I mean ALL : blogger, multiply, facebook, Friendster*, i.ph, wordpress, and many others). And should I say I am pretty much amazed by our IT? ALL proxy sites are banned as well! I mean, there are thousands of proxy sites (or even millions), and none of them will open up. Very, very good IT department (though it is not a funny thing for me). I have another option, as a matter of fact, that is to blog when I got home, but the problem is, when I get home, it is either I am soooooo sleepy, or the idea of what to blog is totally GONE . So last night, I remember the third option, and I made sure I have the secret word ready today, just in case I need some break from my documents. * was quite surprised when I was typing this blog in Word, the word have been corrected automatically, did Mr. Webster...

Have you ever felt regrets about your past? Things that made you think of taking a ride back to that time so that you can make up with it… Then, you begin to contemplate, what life you could have right now if that part of your past was different. And you feel regrets over and over, especially if you found out that thing has changed and gone out your hand for good… And you just know, it’s your piece when somebody asks you if you experienced to have someone, or something, get away from your life forever… When I was in graders, I met this kid. He’s different from any other kid in our class. He’s good looking, he plays basketball real good, and he’s intelligent. He got a sister on other class, but said they’re not twins, they’re just siblings. I found his sister to be a snob, but he said, she’s not, and if I am to give her time, we could be good friends too. I don’t know what’s in him, but I did what he asked from me. Everyone, including our teachers, was asking if there was some...

Unlike other people, I am totally different among others... I-AM-NOT-HAPPY-BEING-HOME... I hate all the interrogations... I hate all the comments... I hate all: "so tell me how Germany's like...", or "so tell me about your new boyfriend..." blah-blah-blah... It's not that I am not eager to tell stories, it's just sometimes, some questions were totally off, I mean, things that should be mine only, private stuffs, that people (and sad to say, my family) keeps on asking! And what I hate more is Mom telling me things of what I should do with OUR relationship, as in I wanna tell her: "Mom, I am the GIRLFRIEND, not you!" About work, well, I was not informed about this change of sched, advancing one hour, which, I was lucky because I did just right, because Sommerzeit has not started yet, but next week... Another thing, first day back here, I received no work yet, which, I understand, because my boss is working on his hundreds of back logs... The only...

Yeah, spring is here next week, and we've been experiencing the sun for days last week, till this week started to f* up... The forecast said the sun will be back today, but hey, it's almost 12 noon, still the sky is gray... Oh well, maybe sentimenting with me, I have received a message this morning that my mom is in the hospital, but thanks that when I called them, she's somewhat well now, only needs a day in the hospital for observation. Maybe that's why I have been out of my mind for days, my mom is not doing good... Two days ago, while I was having an idle time at work, I re-ordered my file folders, and deleted some unwanted documents, and make modifications on my email set up, then poof! All my archive emails GONE! Yes, so stupid to delete both my archive and personal folders. And I have my e-ticket there for next week! Darn! And my boss is calling me at the hotel and my phone for days and she cannot reach me, why? I am always out with U, I do not want to bore my as...

If this relationship will not work, I do not have anybody else to blame but me... And I hate myself for being sooooooooooooooooooo paranoid, and sensitive... Can somebody tell me what to do to keep myself off from being so sensitive? I want this relationship to forever, as much as possible, I do not want to lose him in the end, I am afraid he might get tired of me, because I am becoming sooooooooooooo sensitive... Just blogging, it might help me get myself back...