moving on... first part

and then you said, you want the space...you want to be alone and balance everything...you said you can no longer love me the same way i do for you... so i let you walk away..i let you be who you are just to see you happy again...

and then after a week, you came back..wearing the same old smile, saying hi as if nothing ever happened that brought tears to my eyes a week ago...but i have to pretend i'm fine...i have to show you life goes on...that i can be okay even without you by my side...

you said it's so good to hear i can go on...you said you're glad i'm taking the steps of moving on...towards a life of "you" and "me" and no longer the "us" that i had been used to for a year and ten months...yeah, it's good to hear...too good that you can longer hear the deafening sound of my breaking heart...then, you walked away,without a word...i shouted asking if i can still count on you, if i can still run to you when fate would never be good for me alone...and i think you answered "yes, i will be here for you.." but it was so vague to understand the words you said coz you're million steps away from me now...

moving on...the first part of my moving on...i dunno if i can still take the next step when i know anytime, you can come back to the place where you left me...first step...first attempt...first part...i hope next time i can already say i'm done with my second step, and then third and so on...