Life Goes On

i was checking on the latest posts by my blogger friends till i got to bianx 's (naks! close?)  latest post. while reading it, i told myself, wow! "sakto!" i myself is in a long distance relationship for 1 year and 5 months now to be exact... i thought everything is going on smoothly between us... till just recently, we were hit by a terrible test of love... as his date of vacation approaches, i too have mixed emotions... excitement... happiness... fear... fear that lead to something he never expected, which i myself didn't expect from myself as well... i had petty fight with my mom this weekend, which ended with my sudden outburst of "i don't want to go to Germany! nor to any country in particular!" mom was shocked, and me as well. she asked if there is problem between me and U, i said no, the only reason is her. being an only child, i think it is normal that we fear of losing our parents... i have that fear, that if i go and settle in Germany, i...

when you truly love someone, just a thought of him out of your life shatters every bits and pieces of you, your body... your soul... i miss you U... so much... can't you fly right by my side that fast? as in right now, right here...

While waiting on the training to be finished, a training that I cannot join because the language used is German, I get to finish this poem. It's surprising that I can write poems again, after so many years... And oh, my name is no longer "angel anne," the name that non-sense guy gave me, it's "kleine anne" now, and I guess "U" know why... Detoxification is working perfectly! i've lost all the words to write i've forgotten all the feelings my smile is always a mask that hides the tears that never ends. until one day, U came along just like a dream i had for so long; i'm glad i could smile again and my heart filled with love again. I know, you might say the poem sucks, I am really not good in poems, at least I tried to write again, after so many years...