The Day I Loved Once Again

It was in year 2009 when I decided to take the risk again and begin to love again. It was February in 2009 when my husband and I decided to try it, to know if we are meant for each other. Others did not believe we will make it. Some thinks it was just a fleeting moment, a spark that will die just as fast how it came. But we proved them wrong. We are now on the way to our 6th wedding anniversary, and we are already on our 8 years of relationship. And Darmstadt is sort of our first real date as a couple, but together with some friends. Sharing you some random photos taken in 2009 around Darmstadt.

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They say it's no use to look back in the past, but I see it differently. When I look back on these old photos of the past, it makes me realize how beautiful my life is and how blessed I am to have experienced them and meet those people from the past.

Marfanoid Chronicle

It's almost a year since my last post about my battle. Since my last post, I had been into series of check ups and around three or four hospitalization. It was found out that I have a "deadly" allergy to CT-scan contrasts. I was hospitalized thrice because of it, the first one was not severe, but the second and the last one was really deadly. It was then advised not to undergo the scans again. Which made it more challenging for my doctors to monitor my stents. For a year now, I honestly feel much better. There are pains once in a while, but a rest is enough and I am back on my feet. I just noticed though that severe weather temperature is not my friend. Winter this year was a bit colder than the past winter I experienced and going out was a real struggle for me. Ten minutes out in the cold and it feels like I am fainting anytime. Hence, almost whole winter I was just home. I may feel quite well recently, but inside of me, something's waiting to be repaired/ healed. That's the reason why last December, we had a meeting with the head of the Vascular Medicine of University of Aachen Clinic, where one of the Marfan Center in Europe is also located. Prof.Dr. Jacobs is a very nice and competitive doctor. We are planning a new operation this year. I am just waiting for his advice, I already had my heart and lung function tests done. I will, of course, keep you updated on what's done on me. I am quite nervous, but I trust my new doctor completely and I know God has a better plan for me for the future.

The Memorable Past, The Beautiful Present and The Unknown Future

As mentioned few months back, this is already my nth blog. But it feels too empty. So I decided to challenge myself. In the next days, I will be posting photos of the past, photos that I posted in my old blog, which I deleted during my breakdown moments around two years ago. It will be a form of reminiscing how my life has been after all these years. What had changed and what stayed. Because life is not just about living up to the present, but also about reminiscing the past and looking forward to the future.