goodbye to love

i want to bid love goodbye... but HOW?

i wish it's as easy as waving your hand, turn your back and walk away...

i wish it's not that heartbreaking and won't require shedding too much tears...

but it isn't!

saying goodbye to love is not as easy as simply writing on the sand "GOODBYE LOVE" and leave it behind... it won't work... it won't help... today it is, but tomorrow, it won't... you'll be wanting love back... you'll be asking for his presence again... you'll be longing for his kisses and his touch... and everything that you've written in the sand will simply be washed away by the sea... you'll be back to weeping... back to thinking... back to loving him, all on your own...

love is not that easy to let go... nor is it easy to forget... one great love will forever be a part of you... one great love filled with the most wonderful memories will forever be haunting you...and that one great love will never ever leave you, no matter how many times you have said the lines:

"GOODBYE, LOVE... GOODBYE TO LOVE..."

missing you so badly

i dunno what happened, but for weeks, i lost access to this blog, and to my mails... was i blocked? i don't know and i don't care...

i miss him...

that's the only thing on my mind right now... i miss him... though i know it isn't right... i can't help not to miss him... everyday, i am looking forward seeing him... no matter how hard i try to keep myself from texting or calling him, it doesn't work, in fact, i called him last tuesday and asked him to visit me... even if that was for only 20 minutes seeing him, that was the best damn minutes of my life this month... i know i could never ever get him out of my life... never could i ever live my life without him...

he's my life... he's my everything...

he's my past, my present and will forever be...

so stupid of me to love him! damn it!