Friday, April 22, 2011

Brand New Me

Four days after I said goodbye to Emerson, how am I feeling now? Where I am and what I am up to do next? Few questions whose answers are unknown to me as well.

1) How I am feeling now? It's a mixed emotion. I am happy that I am away from a stressful environment. Stressful in such a way that even with Emerson, I am clueless on to which way my career path would lead. Two years and 10 months was like walking blindly along a known road, it has been treaded for such a long time, yet I do not know what is ahead. I am happy that I got the courage to remove the blindfold and tread a new path, to where this path may lead, I do not know as well, but this mysteriousness is bringing a different kind of excitement for me. Maybe I will find another job here in the Philippines, or maybe never again until I get to Germany. I do not know, but it feels so good to walk the unknown with open eyes, instead of walking along a known path with my eyes blindfolded. It feels so good! But at the other side of these all, I am sad. I miss the people I had been for more than two years. I miss the times I had spent with them, the FISH events, the team building, the birthday celebrations or simply, the small chit-chats during the office hours. I miss their company, but I don't think I miss the work I left there.

2) Where am I now? I'm home-bound. Enjoying the company of my mom. Catching up on what is on the tube. Downloading past movies I missed. Browsing on my German books (by the way, I just took my exam for Start Deutsch 2 last Wednesday, the result is not yet known until next week). Reading German books I got from Germany 2 years ago. Went to see my church friends today and watched the Cenakulo this morning. Planned a meet up with them next week before Ate JingJing goes back to Saudi. That's my life so far after four days of leaving Germany. I am excited over the next days because by next week, my boyfriend will be here again, and we will soon be married! Hopefully, after marriage, things would be fine so I could be in Germany as soon as possible.

3)What am I up to do? Last Monday, I had a phone interview, but the office location is at Makati, so I told them honestly that I do not want to work at Makati again. It's Friday, she said she'd call back after 3 days, and so far I received no message. I am not sure though if the reason was because of I told them that I do not want to work at Makati, or because it is holiday or simply because I failed the interview. I had also applied to some other jobs online, but I said I am available for work by middle of May, so no one had called me yet. I do not know what would be next. But I am excited about one thing, that is the possibility of leaving the country and be with the love of my life. There is also a short term project I am looking forward to: Teatrong Kumot's plan to stage another play this August.

I wish life would be good to me in the days to come. I am excited about the future, no matter what it may be.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

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kleine anne said...

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