Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Going Back To Where I Used To Be

My other cyberspace is up and running again, been blogging there for days already, but I chose to blog here today. Why? Because this is the place where I know my emotions most fit in.

For months, I thought I'm fine, or maybe I just bought that idea to keep myself off from thinking too much. Then, out of the blue, here it comes again. I know I can't blame anybody, all I can blame on right now is myself. Why can't I completely move on? Why do I keep on hurting myself? Why do I continuously love him and hope that there'll be another chance for us again? Why am I so blind and weak when it comes to him? Why can't I just utter the words goodbye whenever I'm facing him?

I hate him for making my life miserable, but I hate myself more than anybody else for loving him despite everything that's obviously happening between us.

The time is not right, we both know that. There won't be an "us" again, we know that, but we keep our eyes closed on those facts. I'm so stupid that I don't know what to do and say without hurting him in anyway.

Damn it!

Saturday, October 18, 2008

My Current Blogsite is Down

Darn it! I cannot blog at my i.ph blog for 3 days now, ampf!

yun lang, hahaha!

Oo nga pala, I got home at 1:30am from work, coz of the meeting. Well, am still somewhat lucky, kasi earlier daw, there was a shoot out sa area where I usually pass by (Munoz market), according to my tito. Katakot talga, then by 27th, 12mn na out ko, huhuhu... Kakatakot talga pag ganung time even if madami pa ding people dito sa Metro. Oh well, what can I do? That's what my work calls for.

Then on the 1st of November, lipat kami ng station beside the web support, grrr!

By the way, it's my Schengen Visa interview this coming Tuesday, so wish me luck! And pray for me to pass it, multiple visa kasi inapply sa kin ng manager ko eh... Unlike my colleague na single entry lang... I really need prayers this time...

Visa

Oo nga pala, I got home at 1:30am from work, coz of the meeting. Well, am still somewhat lucky, kasi earlier daw, there was a shoot out sa area where I usually pass by (Munoz market), according to my tito. Katakot talga, then by 27th, 12mn na out ko, huhuhu... Kakatakot talga pag ganung time even if madami pa ding people dito sa Metro. Oh well, what can I do? That's what my work calls for.

Then on the 1st of November, lipat kami ng station beside the web support, grrr!

By the way, it's my Schengen Visa interview this coming Tuesday, so wish me luck! And pray for me to pass it, multiple visa kasi inapply sa kin ng manager ko eh... Unlike my colleague na single entry lang... I really need prayers this time...

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Updates! Updates!

Funny, I blogged my rants first thing here after being absent for more than a month...

Updates! Updates!

First, Germany invitation is already on its way, so probably, Visa application will commence next week.

Second, there's a little friction in the office due to the upcoming migration thing, and now, our division is caught in between, grrr!

Third, as what I had blogged earlier, grrr!

Fourth, Christmas and New Year will be celebrated here in the Philippines! Yipee! Be back by December 2 and leave again by January 10... Whoa! They do got a lot of money to spend, huh!

Fifth, I miss this site...I hate it, blogger is not allowed, plus, my proxy was already detected by the IT, so I cannot access the FS as well. Boring life, I know, but I have to bear with it till my Citrix access is up... Just a few more months to wait...

Pressured Ako!

Okay, so now Ate Shie has a bf na...And Jen2 has her too...Now, all eyes are on me...

"Why don't get a new one now?"

Damn it!

But luckily, I love Ate Shie's line: "wait till 30's to get a new one..."

Hahaha!