Friday, May 16, 2008

Bye, Tito Danny... I Will Never Ever Forget You...


May 14th of 2008...

One memorable date for me, as this reminds me of that someone, 3 years ago...

And now, this date will be memorable for the rest of my life...

6:30am: I was asleep at the office when I felt someone tapped my lap. I woke up and saw no one around me... So I went back to sleep till the bell rang... And went on with my work...

1:30pm: My cousin went online with the status message: Life is too short. I greeted her belated happy birthday since the 12th was her birthday and I was not able to greet her... She said thanks and told me the worst news this year.... Our beloved, Tito Danny passed away that morning...

I was not able to control my feelings, I cried at the office... I cried and cried and tried to call my mom. But she was not answering the phone. I don't want to believe the bad news, but in my heart, I know it was the truth...

4:00pm: Mom already texted me saying she doesn't want to tell me yet until my interview was done, but then, my couz already told me, and it's better to tell me the truth. My mom knew I won't be okay... I had double thinking about the interview, I wanna go home and see my beloved tito, but then Loi told me to attend my interview, my tito will guide me... Still, I was lucky that the client had important family matters as well, and the interview was called off, or else, I might have not been able to answer his questions.

11:30pm: Even if I am sleepy, I chose to go straight to the chapel first before going home, despite the fact that I have work the following day. I felt pity, it was so difficult for me to see his body lying lifeless, at an improvised bed, because no coffin fits him. I cried seeing him on that situation, and held his cold hand... But all we can do is wait for the coffin to be built for him, he's just too big to fit on ordinary coffins available...

1:30am: We went home and slept. When I closed my eyes, I saw him watching over me as I fell asleep. I cried and cried till I was deeply slumbered...

I was planning to forget May 14, since this was the start of a bitter feeling, yet, tito made this another memorable one... He taught me one thing on his leaving: Forgetting does not cure all the pain, it is accepting...

We will surely miss our Santa Claus... I will surely miss his teachings and his strict way of teaching us life... I will surely miss his laughs and his tap... It was him who tapped my lap when I was asleep, bidding me goodbye... I will surely miss the good old days... All those days when he became a father to me, when he filled in all the emptiness I feel, when he filled in all the things that my own father cannot fill in... I am not a direct niece, for my mom is just his wife's first cousin, and yet, he treated me like his own daughter already... Get mad when I am going astray, and takes pride of my successes... I could never forget how he told evveryone he knows that he got a niece who passed the PRC exam and now a CHEMIST... He took pride of me, and boosted my morale,and made me feel how great it is to be a CHEMIST...

Now, he's gone, with the One Above... I don't know what life is ahead for me and my mom... He's our sole family and protector... He made us feel that we are not alone... I know and I am feeling it now, how big the difference is without him in our life... Tito Danny will always be Tito Danny, no one could ever replace him... A father not only for Kuya Dondon, Ate Dona, Ate Jessica and Kuya Tomtom, but also a father to all his niece and nephew regardless of the degree, a father of Taysan National High School, a father of Brgy. Taysan, a father of all seminarians, and a father of the whole San Jose, Batangas... The town's Big Brother, our family's Santa Claus, every youth's Daddy, and every laborer's Lawyer.

I love you Tito Danny, I may have not thanked you enough when you were alive, but I know, you know how thankful I am I got you as an uncle, for without you, I don't know where I will be right now, and I don't know what could have been the circumstances of our family life if we do not have you around when you were still alive...

I will miss you most... I love you... I am praying for your eternal happiness... Please watch over me everyday,and tap me everytime I do the same mistakes... Don't leave us behind, and don't let any of us go astray...

Good bye, our DEAREST, the BIGGEST, the GREATEST UNCLE OF ALL...

See you at the cross roads, Tito Danny...

1 comment:

Nan said...

Well written article.