Tuesday, April 10, 2007

moving on...part 2

so it was a very difficult vacation for me...four consecutive days back home...i really had a terrible vacation...i have to pretend i'm fine,i have to leave the house all the time...but it's all worth it...finally, i'm somewhat used to this life,well, that's what moving on is for,geting used to the pain and the loneliness...probably the play helped as well,eventhough getting involved to that means seeing and getting attached again to my past that i had been running away from, the past that led me to this fate i am locked right now...if only i never fell to that past,i would have not ran away and fell to this mess i'm trying to get out of right now...sigh, my life had been a series of complicated events, one event to another...when will all this end?going back,so this is finally mys econd step, no phone call from him, no text messages,nothing...and i did very great not to call him myself nor text him,whew!that was so difficult,boring myself with songs,and sleeping the whole day just to refrain from texting nor calling him...and thank God, it's working days again,i'm busy again...


 


here i am now,ready to take the third step towards moving on...

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